Lifeinsixwords

 You were not given a daughter and a sister for you to break me down and tear apart every single area of my life. I was not put here for you to have someone to tease and humiliate every second of every day. You call me selfish and ungrateful for what life has given me, tell me that I am not patient when it comes to wanting something. I try to explain how much of my life has been put on hold and how many things I have wanted I’ve had to give up, for you. Yet, you still act righteous and better than me, how many years must I watch you and him receive and receive while I continue to wait and wait. Most days this family has made me feel a

My emotions as of late have been nothing but stress, fear, anger, resentment, confusion, and uncertainty. I feel like a huge hurricane that has yet to dissipate. There are people in my life that I no longer want here, yet for most I have no say in the matter. For if I were to say these word aloud I would be called selfish, bitter, and cold-hearted. People scold me for no longer caring about them and feeling nothing but indifference to their mere existence. The pain and strife they have caused me do not matter to them. However, I shall no longer apologize for what I feel or believe. I am told to have a voice, an opinion, yet I am treated as

"If I could go back in time I would erase everything I ever said to you. Even if it wasn't much I still gave away parts of me I can never get back and it hurts to know I'm the only one to blame for this. I got caught up in the thoughts of what if instead of what is. I let my heart override my brain and for that I'm sorry. My insides roll at the mere thought of the things I said to you, how I so easily got lost in the idea of you. I also realize that I have moved on, I no longer want to talk to you everyday or crave your simple presence. I merely want you as far away as possible. I wish to cleanse myself of thoughts of you and the memory of yo